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Today was really hot day.
Accounting CA2 test on Depreciation never been smooth-sailing.
the class attendance keep on dwindling due their own commitment,personal problems and mental breakdown.
Do you know that my heart sense something wrong.
Finally,what Eugene said yesterday speak its volume.
I am the latest person having mental breakdown now after him.
Argggh,i have no more confidence left.
The more failures of love accmulate in my heart,i may not able to survive this long.
Damn it,i will never be the same person again any more.
Enough is enough.I had enough for it.
Finally,i understood why Nicholas Tse aviod the issue between him and Cecilia Cheung each time media query such question.
[However when his rumored girlfriend Faye Wong and Cecilia Cheung Pak Chi were brought up, he avoided the questions. About Chapman To Man Jat's practical joke on Cecilia Cheung Pak Chi about him wanting to get her back, Ting Fung said, "I don't know, that's not important. I don't have an answer, I don't mind."
As for Faye Wong and Li Ya Peng's wedding rumors, Ting Fung said, "What! February ?!" When the press said April 4 in Xian, Ting Fung sighed, "Let's go back to talk about work."]
[Nicholas Tse Ting Fung and Cecilia Cheung Pak Chi two nights ago performed at the TVB Tung Wah charity show 2004. Although Ting Fung agreed to pose for pictures with Pak Chi, they still missed each other. Ting Fung however said that if their photo can raise 1 million, he would be willing to stand and wait for three days.
"Don't be so deliberate! We are fine. We are friends and later we have to promote a movie. We won't avoid each other. I hope everyone focuses on the fund raised on the program and not Tse Ting Fung and Cheung Pak Chi. If a photo together can raise 1 million, I am willing to stand here and wait for three days."]
[Nicholas Tse Ting Fung two nights ago attended the Emperor spring banquet and had no comment to any and all questions related to Faye Wong, her marriage and retirement rumors. As for Cecilia Cheung Pak Chi's new song that sounded like it was for Ting Fung, Ting Fung said that he has not heard it yet and he would not write songs about his past. He was better off improving the future.]
I believe that he was crying(shed tears or his heart bled tears) in his own home because he felt that everything went against him.Not the things he would expect.
That was the day when he slammed his own ferrari modena 360,rough ride with Faye Wong and Cecilia Cheung.He felt so down and upset the way his life crooked out of sudden after his successful to integrate with the crowd.
Here,as for me i fought hard against idoits and assholes in secondary school and numerous misunderstanding with some people in whole 21 and half years.
I put myself in one corner crying with sadness,frustration and love failures.
It was so miserable enough for me to cry.I can't even share my sorrow with my mother and sister because they don't understand.At most i will not try to commit suicide as long as i have something to do.
Enough is enough.I am considering myself not coming to school tomorrow if i don't have happiness to begin with.
No one is blamed.No one should accuse.No one should speculate.
You should always think of IQB's welfare.
It is life man!
Life can be happy for us one day and then suddenly change into bad day or even angry day for us.
I hate that life keep on changing out of blue.
[He expressed that the new record includes new songs and past hits, all of which are about his experience since his career started. When he recalled being jeered at his first appearane, he sighed, "In 99 I released my first record. Because of my family I was very lucky; but at the same time I have experienced a lot of embarrassment Everyone felt that this kid was here to play. Later I kept making movies, advertisements, I didn't use a stunt double when I jumped from over ten stories, then everyone realized that I wasn't messing around."]
I remembered the day when i introduced Nicholas Tse's 爱后余生(Life After Love)*Most Wanted Album* to Zhongming.Originally,he didn't like his songs.So as a lot of people.
Thankfully,i wasn't into cantopop and mandopop that time where Nicholas Tse songs were booed for nothing.At Nic Tse's peak,i got myself into Cantopop.The first cantopop album was Most Wanted album.
Gradually,Zhongming heard this 爱后余生 and he accepted the way he sang.
It is easy to slam people's hard work if you don't look their works carefully.
Don't worry about what you wear or you look.
You will look good as long as you do what you really like.Be yourself!
Tony is Tony.Nicholas Tse is Nicholas Tse.You is you.
I have enough eating a lot of spicy foods within 2 weeks.
I decide to swtich it by focusing on writing songs and look forward for future.
This song is made for people who have mental breakdown after having small hope of love.
Short-lived dream
*light jamming with electric guitar*
At the blue clear sky in the morning,clouds are moving.
A lonely cloud drift by a distance,...watching a particular cloud
It try hard to walk closer onto this cloud
In hope that the two clouds will combine together into one big cloud
Never this happen.
This cloud never bother to look at this feeing of this lonely cloud.
Because this cloud prefer to go elsewhere.
Lonely cloud never understood it.
The water began to accumulate in it.
Lonely cloud can not hold too much sadness any more.
It begin to drop the water.
Raining to touch the nirvana of nature.
Weeping,it can never be the same any more.
It disappear out of the sky's sight.
The sky never see it again.
My denial to love
*heavy jamming with bass guitar and electric guitar.More ooph slam with drum and cymbal**frustration feeling reveal from vocal singing*
With much disbelief in your love life,i can only walk away in quick pace.
The blood with upset and sorrow well onto your heart.
The day i found the hint,i will never be the same person.
Because this person never felt in this shoes before.
Naturally,she never thought of that.
MY heart begin to show its crack.
Each time i know bit of truth day by day,the crack become big and bigger.
*increase the dosage of heavy jamming*
With much anguish,i dislike this truth.
I don't need you anymore.
Go to hell...
i can't take it any more and i want to have a quiet moment.
Why did it happen to you!
Go away!I want to run faster till...
my heart reach its limit.
I feel like killing myself because i don't like it.
*heavy rock music going down to slow and sweet music*
Never let this kind of love happen to me again.
Tony Del Piero wrote and posted at at 4:33 pm
